Wednesday, July 28, 2004 , 8:46 PM
><))o> The simple pleasures in life
#I've been in a total mugger mood lately...everyday is like a routine...i woked up at 6am plus, go to school by 7.30am....after school ends, i stay in the library and mug till the librarians chase me out....and two days ago, me and mei mei went to canteen after the library closed and surprising at 6.15pm, Osman (the school caretaker) chased us out too! And its only 6.15pm...!!
#Havent been watching TV much...the only show that i watch now is Amazing Race (which is today!!!)...i am beginning to appreciate little pleasures in life like watching TV, blogging (like now), sleeping (probably the most relieved period of time) and eating. Last time, when i had too much time, and i was online 24 hours a day (i'm exaggerating..), or watching TV straight for a few hours, I would feel bored as if i had nothing better to do. Now, i look forward to every Wednesday when i allow myself to relax (by watching Amazing Race) and blogging became sort of a form of reward i would give myself after much mugging....Yeah..
#The night's getting pretty cold...dear friends and people who read my blog, don't forget your blankie when you sleep!
Friday, July 23, 2004 , 8:57 PM
><))o> "Although Chinese Cinderella was written when I was in my late 50s, inside I am still the same little child yearning for the love of my parents." -Adenline Yen Mah
from top right: Adeline's big sister Lydia, big brother Gregory, 2nd brother Edgar, 3rd brother James, younger sister Susan, half-brother Franklin, Adeline and family pet Jackie.
Adeline's stepmum, Jeanne Prosperi.
Adeline Yen Mah, now.
#I have always saw Adenline Yen Mah's
Falling Leaves and
Chinese Cinderella placed in the best selling section at Orchard's Kinokuniya...been wanting to grab one of the books and indulge myself but i didn't particularly hunt for the book in libraries. A few days ago, i saw it in my school library and i borrowed the book.
#The book was about the author's life up to the age of 14. It was such a tragic account...she lost her mum when she was just 2 weeks old and her family considered her bad luck for the family. Her father remarried a half French- half Chinese lady by the name of Jeanne Prosperi. The lady became her and her 4 older siblings' stepmum. She discriminated against her and her siblings and favoured her own children only. And being 1 of the 7 children "bestowed" to her dad, the author was a relatively insignificant daughter in her father's eyes. Her father gave little notice to her...forgot her chinese name, forgot her birthday. Although her family was well off, she had to walk to school everyday...she didn't have beautiful toys and dolls like many other girls of her age and she wasn't allowed to invite friends to her house or vice versa (thanks to her evil stepmum!). Despite all odds, she worked hard with the sole aim of proving to everyone that she wasn't useless or stupid. Eventually, she paved a path of success for herself.
#The way the author wrote the book was honest and she touches me with all the intense sentiments that she had during those 14 years of misery. Mei Mei told me that she cried when she read the part about the letter to the author from the author's aunt BaBa (to whom she is very close with)...although i didn't shed tears for that section, i felt anger gushing through my veins when the author's father showed little sensitivity to her by testing their dog's obedience ( a german sherpherd by the name of Jackie) using the author's only friend, a little duckling by the name of Precious Little Thing. The duckling suffered a blow from the stupid dog and died....the author was devastated...one of her pillar of strength had came crashing down again...i felt the pain too...and i feel angry and upset for the author.
#After reading the book, i had only admiration for the author...she mastered the courage to brave all odds at such a young age....i didn't think she comtemplated suicide...which gained even more admiration from me....the book was so inspirational....unlike the normal books that you see today with ridiculous plots like "a single mum suffering from mid-life crisis and meets a laundry man that turns her life around",
Chinese Cinderella was penned with the heart of the author and in no way was the account flowered by exaggerated language or depictions. That is why the book is special. If you are looking for a book that touches your inner soul and brings out your emotions,
Chinese Cinderella provides just that form of escapade.
, 1:48 PM
><))o>In school
#I'm in school now...today a zero period (meaning a 45min period created by cutting down the previous 9 periods by 5mins) was created to allow the student council investiture to take place. Since the whole ceremony only involved the J1....i'm free now....decided to blog and do up my testimonial.
#The past few days have been pretty ok i guess....went for consultation with my chem and maths tutors. I was more or less able to understand some difficult concepts better...felt less stupid also...but the lastest lecture on Complex Numbers just mystifies me...since complex numbers are imaginary numbers, they dont really exist...so their existance occurs in a weird way that i couldn't really understand. With that Dennis Yeo as the lecturer...*sigh* gone case man. It was also because of Dennis Yeo that i could understand curve sketching and curve transformation...*sigh* Hopefully Mrs Soon can do a chatper summary soon...
#Talking about Mrs Soon...i was so happy to learn that on National Day celebration, Mrs Soon will be following my class for the AJ Amazing Race!! Yeah....so nice to have her around...she's like a mother like that always nagging at us....but she also help us alot in maths...so yeah! Yong Hao seemed to have the race all planned out....he is very enthusiastic about it....i think if our class wins, much of the credit should go to him...haha...
#Gotta be off to do my testimonial now (yeah...those stuff where you brag about how great your talents are or how you try to save that little kitten stuck in a monsterous-looking tree)!
Tuesday, July 20, 2004 , 9:13 PM
><))o> Mugger-neers
#Total mug is IN now.
#I'm IN total mug now.
#The stronger a person seem to be on the outside, the weaker the person is on the inside.
#Sometimes tears just force their way out...
-amy out, mugging-
#Mugging rocks!
Saturday, July 17, 2004 , 9:02 PM
><))o> wisdom tooth not so much a pain in the a** afterall
#just yesterday i was complaining about the pain the wisdom tooth is giving me and *pooF* today the swelling went down and it wasnt so painful! I'm seriously thankful for the unexpected turn...was supposed to go gym with a friend of mine...but my friend could only stay for an hour at the gym so i kinda think its sort of a waste of time to go down to Jurong for an hour of gym..plus...yesterday i wasnt so sure if the toothache would turn out really bad...so i didn't want to risk meeting my friend only to be a wet blanket....
#so things took a turn. What did i do then? Well, i ended up gymming with jac...did the trekmile, bike and some situps...feeling great now....been such a long time since i gym...*feeling like a pig* Haha...i feel more refreshed now....possibly more emotionally happier also...=)
#at the gym, someone fainted while taking his weight and went into a fit...me and jac got a shock....luckily he recovered quickly....we concluded that he probably overworked himself and he was also kinda fat....so yeah....=)
#Saw a brochure at the gym with info on kickboxing lessons....for 12 sessions, its only $40 plus...i have always wanted to go kickboxing...seems like a great way to work out and at the same time, i can get to learn some martial arts...hehe...cant wait to sign up for it after As!
Friday, July 16, 2004 , 8:57 PM
><))0> PMS again
#i feel myself sinking into depression again....today was a sucky day mainly because i had a bad toothache due to the sprouting of the wisdom tooth (wonder why is it called wisdom tooth when its existence doesnt seem to bring any wisdom to me especially when i need it the most now!)....the pain is not excruciating...but it is enough to warrant me a loss of appetite for the day, abit of speech problem and loads of irritation...to make things worse, that Dawes seem irritated that me, jac, mei mei, intan and marlin wanted to take the GP timed practice earlier since we are having breaks and by doing the timed practice earlier, we could get to go home earlier. I'm dying to go home and remedy my toothache so i couldnt care less when he showed his unhappiness. In the end, he let us took the test anyway....*sigh* did i mentioned that i just passed GP? Yeah....GREAt...it was also because of my lousy grade that i was in a horrible mood....up till now...yah...now...
#i feel so much unhappiness inside me...but i have to wrap them up into little parcels and keep them in a corner of my heart. Now, it is not the time for crying or thinking about unneccessay things. I just hope i have the mental strength to last me through the next few months...
Thursday, July 15, 2004 , 12:52 PM
><))o> a happier girl
#Helooo everyone...i'm back after a few days of being Missing In Action..back as a happier person of course....my stomachache is gone (gone on the day itself thank goodness!) and surprisingly, my pms wasnt very bad this month...just a little backaches and all...so...thanks to all who have been so concern...=)
#the first two period today was physics lab so me and my gang (excluding leena) went to the reading room to do our stuffs....the 1 and a hlaf hours there were sucky....
Firstly, the aircon was not on....very stuffy and its really difficult to concentrate...after the aircon was finally on (to the relief of many!), that PE teacher, Alex Lee, had to be pumping his PE class. So you can imagine what is it like to be deep in thoughts and suddenly interrupted by "ONE!....TWO!! ONE THOUSAaaannnd...TWO THOUSaannnd..." (yeah...some idiot go and drag the last vowel!)....after what it seems like eternity, the pumping finally stopped and the aircon was turning too cold for us to bear (ok...i sound like such a complain queen)....so i just stopped doing my work and walk around the school compound with jac and meimei...
#today is a short day for me....YEah! One more lesson to go...and SCH ENDS! Oppss....think its time for me to go and see that Dawes again!
-amy out-
Monday, July 12, 2004 , 1:34 PM
><))o> boring day
#gosh today is such a long day....and later i have to go for bio practical somemore (yeah...i'm in school now)...i hope bio practical is something easy like just dissection not some plan drawing....*sigh* i have been in a moody mood since GP cos that Mr Dawes was so boring that i left for ZZZ land. After that had a break...totally no appeptite for any food...only had some beancurb then chemistry was replaced by civics cos Miss Chua want to let our class discuss some National Day Amazing Race thingy...i took the golden opportunity to sleep and after the nap, i woke up with a stomachache....which is why...i even more moodier (i dont care if there is no such word!) than i was before...i wish the stomachache would go away...it's really spoiling my mood....!
Friday, July 09, 2004 , 7:10 PM
><))o> cross DOSS?
#Ms Kwan-Terry, my gp teacher was on mc for about 2 weeks and this relief teacher named Joseph Doss is teaching my class for the time being. And if you think he's a foreigner or something then think again. Infact, he could just be your next door neighbourhood-friendly indian man blessed (or perhapes cursed) with an ang moh name. He came in on Tues for the first lesson. My verdict: Boring!
#Today we had to endure 2 gp lessons with Mr Doss. With him teaching, time is like ploughing through. And that ganison, i not not sure if he had nothing better to do or his studies are really making him go crazy, he came up with a joke and a poem with Mr Doss as the butt of the joke. The joke goes something like : " YOu know if you remove the M,r, D and s from Mr Doss' name, you will get Dos. MS DOS that dos. That's why if he marks our gp papers, instead of writing things like 'grammer mistake, spelling mistake', he would write 'invalid command' "
#Kinda lame.
#The poem goes something like this :
Mr Doss, i know you dont floss.
Which is why your mouth stinks like moss.
Your hair is like gloss.
Which is gross.
If i get D7 for my gp,
You will be the cause.
#Ok...i admit that poem was really funny but i shouldnt be so bad and go laughing at Mr Doss. He's afterall, a teacher who is just making a living. That aside, i kinda miss Ms Kwan-Terry. Hope she will be back soon so i don't have to endure Mr Doss!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004 , 2:16 PM
><))o> A day with 36hrs
#school for me ended at 1pm today and with my choir responsibilities officially released, I'M FINALLY FREE AS A BIRD and with loads of spare time at my disposal. So a 24hr day seems like a 36hr day for me today...i'm already at home, bathed and happily blogging now (and its only 2pm+!)...
#life has started to suck since school reopen yesterday...i got back my chem results and it sucks big time...its a big, fat O. To think i studied so hard and even did TYS for chem...seems like all my efforts have gone down the drain. Frankly speaking, i have always hated chem (since secondary school). Now, i hate chem even more! To make things worse, i failed my bio prac...*sigh* To top it all off, Mrs Soon has to tell us that for our class, only 42% of us passed maths..that means only 11 of us passed out of a class of 26! The impact of the news is just depressing and my future looks bleak...
#Since shuxin want me to blog about the video we saw during GP lecture yesterday then i shall talk abit about it. The video is a documentary flim on sex trafficking in Romania. There is many orphans in Romania who are desperate for money and got into sex trade for money...some of them are threatened and forced into sex trade. The disgusting part about the whole show is that young Romanian boys in the sex trade pimped themselves to gays!Then got one part where a topless girl was walking on the street (the top censored of course)...got another part where a guy was flashing his genitals to the flimmaker. Actually the aim of the flimmaker was to find the mastermind behind one of the sex trading business who goes by the name of Tom Peters. He got to meet Tom Peters eventually and learnt the ironic truth about Tom Peters' presence in Romania. Tom Peters went Romania to help out as a charity worker but somehow got strayed and started the sex trade business (talk about self-sacrificing spirit!). Yea...overall, i sympathise the orphans. They are so helpless and so desperate...i hope the Romanian government is doing something about it!
#So much for today...i'm looking forward to watching The Amazing Race 5 (best reality TV show ever!)!!! *amy out*
Tuesday, July 06, 2004 , 8:37 PM
><))o> The unjust world
#it hurts most when you dont reap what you sow....
#some people are just so blinded by their stubborness that they fail to see that they are wrong much less to admit their mistake.
#this world sucks...
Monday, July 05, 2004 , 9:52 AM
><))o>
#there's a saying in chinese that you can bever retrive the water which you have poured out. Whenever a hurtful remark or action is made, the damage cannot be undone. It's just like pouring out a bowl of cereal and afterwhich decide against eating the cereal and pour the cereal back into the box. Not every tiny crumbs can be retrived. Instead, they remain as evidence of what one has done.
Sunday, July 04, 2004 , 12:12 PM
><))o> Food for thought
#The flapping of a single butterfly's wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. So, in a month's time, a tornado that would have devastated the Indonesian coast doesn't happen. Or maybe one that wasn't going to happen, does.
-the butterfly effect, chaos theory
Saturday, July 03, 2004 , 10:09 AM
><))o> Spiderman 2 RoCKS
#went to jurong point yesterday and met up with my bf to watch Spiderman2. I have been told that Spiderman 2 wasnt really good although it kinda puzzled me because Spiderman 1 was such a blast. Turns out that Spiderman 2 was fantastic, i was totally blown away by all the action, romance, philosophy and of course humour! I hate being a betrayer of Harry Potter, but i really think Spiderman2 was way better than Harry Potter 3. *Amy shrugs* It's the truth. Those who havent watch it, go watch it!!!
#Saw my first 3 months friend, Suransi, at JP too. We are like two crazy women screaming when we saw each other (hence the phrase "long time no see"). Found out that she's kinda coping well with her life (still rock as usual) and she's even more beautiful with her new side-parting hair and like me, also suffers from exam woes (ah! Typical!). I found out that she blogs too...so her name is going under my honorary list of friends.
#did i mention that i rented C.S.I season 1 at $1 per disc from some rental shop at CHong Pang? Yeah...$1 per disc..what a good bargain! Hehe..now i can idulge myself watching how those "know-it-all" C.S.I solve murder crimes! Whee!!
Friday, July 02, 2004 , 10:55 AM
><))o> Post exam syndrome
#the early stages of post exam syndrome: hitting downtown without changing out of school uniform, watching tv shows till late into the night, sleep like a pig and wake up with a bad headache (from oversleeping) and a stinky breath.
Late stages of post exam syndrome: spend most of the time sitting infront of the computer doing non-productive things like blogging, gaming, reluctant to return back to school next tues and suffering from mental disorder as a result of worrying over the grades.
#exams are officially over (mid year exams i mean)...today i do not have to report for any exams so i slept right through the morning till 10.30am and the first thing i did when i wake up was to BLOG.
To celine and Shuxin: Thank you for your encouragements!
Much as i am relief that hell was over, i can sense that hell is pretty much awaiting me because i know my results will sux big time....*sigh* Shouldnt let this mood dominate the happier mood i'm feeling now.
#been thinking about some emotional stuffs lately...one particular morning, it suddenly strike me that i should do something about the emotional knot that i have in my heart since 2 years back (ok, a pretty trumatic thing happened then)...the person whom was partly responsible for the whole episode had sms me at the beginning of this year and apologised. I accepted the apology but felt that i wasnt ready to face the whole problem yet so i continued to avoid the person and run away from the problem.One morning, I felt that i have been doing this for way too long and decided to untie the knot by meeting up with the person someday to bury the hatchet. Having made that decision, i feel a tiny happiness swelling in my heart. At least i feel better now having taken the first step to face the problem. As for when i will meet up the person, i guess i will wait till the turbulent journey to As are over, when i am more settled emotionally and mentally to solve the problem.
#Alrighty to all my beloved friends out there who have just finish exams, enjoy yourself! See you guys on tues! I'm going chong pang with mum now for Brunch! Hehe....
